Monday, August 9, 2010

Back on Track

You have to listen to your body. Not the little whispers such as "I'm tired", "I don't feel like it", "I don't have time". But the screams of "I am sick, hit a wall and am going to make myself so much worse if I keep going". When you are sick, don't work out. I didn't yesterday.

Instead I walked into the walk-in clinic that is open on Sundays. 3 minutes later I walk out with steroids pumping through my veins, a prescription for a dose pack and antibiotics. By 7 pm I felt like I could tackle the picking up, laundry, and 2 kids again.

So 128. I'm not really a fan of diet tricks. It's never worked for me to chew my food for 20 seconds, drink a glass of water before lunch, eat slowly, don't eat after 6pm. I had a thought, it's worked today, who knows if I will remember it tomorrow.

My thought was- "128 feels good. Watching that number continue to go down feels good but right now, all I care about is keeping that number from going back up to 129. When I eat today, I will this going to make that number go up or help me stay at 128?"

This doesn't mean I am not eating. It doesn't mean I am not having a couple gluten free Annie's chocolate and vanilla bunnies as my carb with my chicken salad from Cafe at Pharr. And my coke of course. What it does mean is that I am not mindless eating, eating huge portions or eating something that I am not really craving.

Thanks to the steroid shot, I was able to work out with my trainer. It's still pretty miserable but (and maybe thanks again to the steroid shot) I felt like I was able to have better form and complete more reps before having to take breaks. Starting to feel less sorry for myself during the workouts and that's encouraging!

128!! Woo hoo!! I might actually keep that bikini after all!


  1. I have the pleasure of working with Dr. Brian Wansink, author of "Mindless Eating: Why We Eat More Than We Think." He is a world expert on the eating behaviors of people and Director of the Food and Brand Lab at Cornell University. The book is a truly interesting and fun read. I think you will enjoy it and will spread the wealth.
    The book basically states that it is easier to change our environment that to change our minds when it comes to food choices. Keep the fruits and veggies out and handy to grab instead of chips. Keep unhealthy snacks out of site.

    Check out the book and his sites, and It will be worth your time.

  2. The thought is a good one. This is a thought that I regularly have, well, not so much at the last of my pregnancy, but now I'm starting to get back on that positive, is it worth it to eat this process.

  3. Anonymous- I have been there. I have done the mind tricks, the reading about, the reasons behind, the self help books. They all sound great and inspiring and even Oprah said she will never diet again after reading one. We see how that turns out....

    But honestly. I have come to a very big conclusion for what works for me. It is just: to do. Stop looking at habits, behaviors, emotions, blood sugar issues, PMS, momma issues, society....and just do. I am an educated person. I know what is healthy and what is not. I can either choose smart choices or not. But if I choose not, then I better not complain about it.

    Honestly, I am just so sick of living a life where it all has to be answered, explained, thought about, reasoned with. Too much energy. I would rather just choose a grilled chicken salad most of the time instead of having to read one more book about it.