Like today for instance. Day started out (or actually it's all just a continuation of the night if you are awake at 3:30 am right?) with a fight with my husband. Without details, let's just say it's a sleep deprived, hormonal driven, my-life-is-harder-than-yours moment. And we haven't had many since transitioning from one to two children. That has actually been an easy step. Until today.
Then add to that the ugly (warning: it's ugly). Having a period after 11 months is no joke. Add to that the fact that tampons just don't fit like they used to and I have to choose between my bladder control pads and huge "I'm 13 years old again" pads. Really, I don't get to choose between red or white wine? It's which pad is better at the time?
Add to that the mommy guilt of leaving my 7 week old in the gym nursery for the first time. She was screaming when I left. The internal dialog for the first 5 mins on the tm went something like this:
"I can't believe I left her but how am I supposed to get through this day if I don't get my 20 mins, I will be a better mommy today if I run but I should really get her and I cannot believe my husband said that I'll show him how easy it is I'll go to a hotel tonight this pad is rubbing my thighs did I put the right pad on *ahhchoo* I guess I'll find out my boobs are hurting I am done breast feeding this sucks but I'll feel so guilty I can't believe I left her I better go No get to my 20:00 then go I'll feel better for it"
Then the tears. Can't just get on a TM and go anymore can we?
20 min run @6.0 mph (yes I stayed on)
later after checking on baby: dead bug (head down b/c neck still hurts), lunges with glide disk 1x12, plank position on bosu-alternating knees, push ups on bosu 2x5.
Any core and strengthening I am doing is geared to keeping my back and hips strong and safe when I do my cardio. I need the foundation to continue cardio which is my primary concern right now. This, as mentioned before, will change.